to My girl,i named u Dezray Lacy Kersting. .should of been Mcmahan
i want you to know that i miss you every second of every day but i has no hay of providing for you and me there is alot that u need to know befor you look for any one eles i pray u find me first. .if i am passed on when u find me just know that i love you and am with u. ..please trist no one on My side of the family they will lie to u at lest my sisters will and on ur daddy side well u have lots of sisters and brother s but they all not good for u. ..i pray u have a great life with john and amy. .i hope u stay away from drugs if u ever get on them rey to get off them ..dont make the mistakes i have made im sorry i hurt u by being on pain meds befor i new u was in me..i did not know i could have babies ...i wanted u just no one would help me keep u everyone helped me give u up nit one sister opened there home to me so that we could stay together un sorry My love i wanted u just has no home to bring u home to....me and ur dad are together again now u was made out of love ice known him since i was 17he loves me and u but like i said any and john was lied to u will b as well any and john parker is who addopted u...we will wait for u till the day we die we miss u but one thing i know is they love u and will protect u. ..she loves u and he promise me he will protect u always. ..u are always gonna b my baby. .i just hope i did the right thing for u by leting u go. .cry every day still cuz i miss u so bad...just too poor hunny im off drugs but still poor ...me ..forever hoping to see u again and hugg u. ..ur first mommy Barbra jean Kersting