That sounds like Tony, always doing and never thinking about the damage it will cause. He had his moments of being calm, but that was rare. Those are the times I really miss, we could at least talk and just be a couple. In the other moments, it was a wild ride, some of it was fun, some of it not so great. He had a good heart, but was a jealous man and drugs did not help this situation. I had hoped that he would get better during our time together, but it never did improve. I really did love him then. Life goes on, now I am with someone who treats me wonderfully and loves me. Glad you changed, a family is a wonderful thing to have in your life.